walls abandon shape

my life is too cluttered. if you know me well you know that i have a tendency to take on too many projects at once: school, work, studio shit, being a baller, so much to do and so little time...and 90% of the time i can handle it. i like it actually. what i never do though is give myself time to recharge, taking on newer and bigger projects in its stead.
so now i am stuck with all this bull corn ass work and am slacking off in almost every aspect. i am almost too good at dealing with stress, to the point of ignoring it. fuck springtime, what i need is some winter cleaning before i start craving drastic change...and certainly before mr. seasonal affective disorder kicks in and i turn back into some overly introspective emo fag (oh, it's already started, all weekend my thoughts kept returning to BEING ALONE FOREVER)

but at least i figured out some gifs, ya yah?
EDIT: So the gif works, but blogspot - of course - doesn't. i think you can see what it's supposed to look like if you click on the image. i guess it's nothing special anyway. my cello currently only has 3 strings on it for fuck's sake.






what's the point of instruments-
words are a sawed off shotgun